Hi everyone,
It has been years... It is Day 37 of our Movement Control Order and many things have happened along the years since coming back to our hometown.
It has been hard having to lose my husband unexpectedly on 16.01.16. I had to learn to be strong on my own feet. I could never imagine losing him and it happened unexpectedly. I left everything behind and started anew. Went to a sport that I have no experience in and finding ways again to express my heartache.. To date, it has been 1559 days since he went home to Paradise.
Sewing has helped me a lot to find myself.. I can't deny not missing him every single day.. but I made a vow and a promise to honour him and live this life well. We always agree on this life being an adventure. Open heart and open mind to welcome whatever possibilities.
2016/2017 have been years of rediscovering my self, new friendships and strengthening current ones.
2018 has been the year of making a comeback to the stage. I made a solo trip on my own to revisit places that matters to us and creating new memories with my love ones in AUS. One specific spot that got to me was being in King's Park and discovering new trails that led me to the " Place of Reflection". Thanks to my dear friends, somehow managed to be a part of a dance team performing for Rainforest Fringe Festival and a special piece called "Jagalah Diri" as a tribute to my dear husband with my bestfriend. My bestfriend showed me what love meant.. Thank you for honoring Justin.
2019 became a year of trusting myself and working towards becoming a ballet barre instructor. I am honoured and grateful for everything that life brings.
2020 became the new normal...learning to work from home and balance work..
This poem by Rumi resonates with me a lot...
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond
Guest House
Until then,
Live this life well,
Stay Home, Stay Safe,
Love and Light always,
me Ninot
