Day 38 of the Movement Control Order. It was announced last night, this will be extended for another 2 weeks. I am somewhat relieve with the decision but honestly I do miss meeting my loved ones.. I guess virtual dates will have to continue on.
Sewing updates: Been loving hand sewing hexies and seeing the beautiful mix of colours
Ballet Fitness is my other life.. Persevering on with the daily livestreams and finding joy in being able to shared the thing I love with you..
Selamat Berpuasa to all my Muslim friends and family.
It has been years... It is Day 37 of our Movement Control Order and many things have happened along the years since coming back to our hometown.
It has been hard having to lose my husband unexpectedly on 16.01.16. I had to learn to be strong on my own feet. I could never imagine losing him and it happened unexpectedly. I left everything behind and started anew. Went to a sport that I have no experience in and finding ways again to express my heartache.. To date, it has been 1559 days since he went home to Paradise.
Sewing has helped me a lot to find myself.. I can't deny not missing him every single day.. but I made a vow and a promise to honour him and live this life well. We always agree on this life being an adventure. Open heart and open mind to welcome whatever possibilities.
2016/2017 have been years of rediscovering my self, new friendships and strengthening current ones.
2018 has been the year of making a comeback to the stage. I made a solo trip on my own to revisit places that matters to us and creating new memories with my love ones in AUS. One specific spot that got to me was being in King's Park and discovering new trails that led me to the " Place of Reflection". Thanks to my dear friends, somehow managed to be a part of a dance team performing for Rainforest Fringe Festival and a special piece called "Jagalah Diri" as a tribute to my dear husband with my bestfriend. My bestfriend showed me what love meant.. Thank you for honoring Justin.
2019 became a year of trusting myself and working towards becoming a ballet barre instructor. I am honoured and grateful for everything that life brings.
2020 became the new normal...learning to work from home and balance work..
This poem by Rumi resonates with me a lot...
This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond
Apologies for not posting much here.. I have moved into my very own studio aka me Ninot playground :)
Thanks to Mommy for letting me use her empty first floor space..
been catching up with my crafts and currently completing "Project Fun Cuddles" Lap Quilt
for a special person in my life...
Just a moment then, I was inspired to create yo-yo posies cushion to match the quilt using the same fabrics from the quilt..splash of colours; bright and pastels all mash together..
Today, spent time with mom in her studio downstairs learning how to use the overlocker
& had an A-HA moment:)
"OMG, I'm so gonna overlocked everything!!" Mom just looked at me all amused..
Happiness is when I'm inspired to craft, to create, to sew for my loved ones :)Happiness is when lupus decided to be nice to me today :)
Time really do fly and now it's already the month of May.
A very important month to me because...
It has been 10 years living with lupus..going through the ups and downs..
the trips to the doctors, tests and more tests...and I'm thankful to have met doctors who actually do care straight from their hearts and willing to embark on this journey with me..
always on the hope of making it easier..trusting that God will work through them, I have managed to get through the last 10 years with my head held high..
Nevertheless, this has been a journey and it is still is.. It's frustrating at times..
I have learned to understand and accept that it's okay to be upset and frustrated
because we are still human after all..
Lupus is such a mystery..cruel some might say as no one knows
when it will stop progressing in the body and how far it will spread...
To better understanding of Lupus please click here :)
I was ready to give up living as I didn't see the point of living until I realized that there's still FAITH, HOPE and there's still so much more LOVE to give..Sometimes, we may not understand why this happens to us but I truly believe to everything there's a reason...
I have chosen to embrace my life with it, we just need to figure out a way to get around it..
Some days are harder than the other but life still has to go on.. maybe a little slower but I have chosen life and will stick to it :)
I just pray that I continue to have the strength and faith to get through it all..
I hope that you will all join in my quest and journey to find a cure for lupus or even spreading a better understanding of lupus to everyone out there..
I Love you all with all of my heart....
Thank you bang for getting through all this with me..
Thank you for being so patience and loving..
Thank you mommy and daddy for being so strong..
Thank you Franciscan Sisters and Fathers of St Joe for praying for me...
Thank you Mdm Monica for being a strong support...
Thank you my dear SFS girls including My best friend for being so positive..
Thank you to my Aussie family/friends for being so accommodating..
Finally, it seems likes forever have gone by and I'm finally back..
Bringing my blog back to life...
My apologies for not progressing with me Ninot
I really appreciate your understanding..
It has been an amazing journey with wedding bells included , I couldn't have ask for more :)
The Love of My Life... :)
Apart from a long obstacle along the way
that kept me from getting back into my crafts..
I miss it so much and having Crafting Withdrawals..
The truth, I had a relapse. I live my day-to-day life with SLE or better known as Lupus.
I have been in remission for quite sometime and now its back.
It's just another draw back but that doesn't mean I will stop living.
I have chosen LIFE :) and just need to re-think my strategies to embrace life..
It has been too long to get back on my feet and I won't let this pull me back...
This explains the constant delays in trying to get myself together because honestly sometimes, getting out of bed seems like the hardest and feeling overwhelmingly fatigue at the same time doesn't help.
A quick shoutout to my girls for their love even through the worst of days
I've learned to embrace the pain. Embrace the solitude. Embrace the constantly changing plan of my day as my pain and energy levels fluctuate. I surrender. I simply trust that whatever is in front of me at any given moment, He is in the center of it.
- Sara Frankl May 13 1973 - September 24, 2011
This quote is written by a dear friend I met in the blog world..Sara is a beautiful person inside out..
I thank God I found her here cause she has given me so much more
hope to continue living and choosing joy.. I'm so glad our paths crossed..
I have finally completed Pretty in Pastels Gift bags for a lovely friend.. * insert the happy dance here*
It has been an exciting process right from the very beginning..
Midnight rendezvous with my fabric followed by afternoon tea in the library (figuring out the gift bags lining + ribbons) to weekends of fun with my love one whose assisting me with this project...
All bags are made with love and personally by me & assisted by the Love of my Life :)
Thank you so much for putting up with my insanity..
Deciding on buttons...
Waiting in the wings...
Polka dots lining and flowers & Heart shape buttons... :)
Finish :)
Thank you to Ting Ling for giving me this opportunity.. I can't wait for you to have them..
I'm so glad that our paths have crossed again.
Sending my love & best wishes to the retreat. May the retreat be filled with
